Yesterday was Fabian's birthday. It's the first one since he died. I didn't deal so well. I didn't even finish practice, but went home halfway through and had a really good cry. I've been doing better, but sometimes you just really need to cry and yesterday everything hit me all at once again-
This is never going to get any easier, is it?
I don't want to do the family thing at Easter this year. There's always so many people and it will be go go go if Aunt Nola has her way and I really would just like my space. That's why it's been good staying with Alison and Ralden. They respect that, no questions asked.
But I have to go. It's family, it's Easter and it's expected. Maybe I can duck out early. I have a match Easter Sunday anyway. At least I can get out of the gatherings that day.
Well, it looks to be an exciting weekend. Easter and Quidditch. Can't beat that.