Deirdre Ryan-Prewett (killarneypride) wrote,
Deirdre Ryan-Prewett
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October 27th, 1982



I spent most of yesterday holed up in my flat a miserable, weeping mess. I have spent most of the month dreading the date of the twenty-sixth of October.

It's been a year since Fabian died, now. A year. I thought I had... well, not moved on, per say, but come to terms with it, of sorts. Apparently not.

I miss him. I miss him so bloody much that it still hurts. I still can't get that last hospital scene out of my head, and I imagine it'll be a memory I'll take with me to my own grave. Obviously I try to think about the good ones more, but it's the last time I ever spoke to him, and-

I see so many people out there living their lives and being happy (or at least faking it, how the hell can I really tell?) and I wonder if that will ever be me again. It's hard to watch them sometimes, it really is-

At least I have Quidditch. And we finally have a win to our name, which is something to smile about. I can't imagine how relieved Aidan must be right now. I didn't think I would have it in me mentally to start that match, but- well. Inspiration is a funny thing, you know? And I have really brilliant teammates. Tess was a wonderful distraction tonight Jamie was so cute and that's another road I'm not thinking about because, and between her and Izzy I think I might go and get that tattoo. Some change is good, yeah?

And I am glad we can celebrate the end of the war on Monday. I really am. It means that everything Fabian worked for wasn't for naught.




There's a beautiful night sky out tonight. It's good if you're an astronomer.
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Sure is something, isn't it.
Almost makes me wish I had paid more attention in Astronomy class back in the day.
Wait, wait, we were supposed to pay attention is Astronomy?
I don't know what school you went to, but there were exams and things we eventually had to sit that generally required some sort of paying attening in class in order to pass.
Rubbish. All you had to do was read the textbook.
...There was a textbook?
Oh, look at you.
Hey, I never claimed to have done well in that subject.
Did you know that we had other textbooks?

killarneypride

7 years ago

as Aidan Kiely.

goldnpc

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killarneypride

7 years ago

as Aidan Kiely.

goldnpc

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killarneypride

7 years ago

as Aidan Kiely.

goldnpc

7 years ago

killarneypride

7 years ago

as Aidan Kiely.

goldnpc

7 years ago

killarneypride

7 years ago

as Aidan Kiely.

goldnpc

7 years ago

killarneypride

7 years ago

as Aidan Kiely.

goldnpc

7 years ago

killarneypride

7 years ago

And to think I was always so sure that the Astronomy Tower was just for snogging.
You learn something new every day.
Unreal to realise that it actually was used for something else, right?
Well if you're serious about that tat I can just see the inside of the hospital.
You're on night shift again? You know, I think I might
Somebody's got to fluff the pillows.
It's a tough job, but someone's got to do it?
That's right.

[Private: Sandy/Deirdre]

I always tell people to seriously think about what tattoo they want. It's really best to get one only if you know exactly what you want, because removing them is a headache.
Well, I would hate to end up in the hospital with terrible pillows.

[Private: Sandy/Deirdre]
That's why I've never gotten one before, because I wasn't completely sure about it. Though, like I said, the idea's been at the back of my mind for awhile.
We can go through the studio and talk about it more if you'd like.
I think I would like that. I talked to Tess earlier about some things, and a second opinion would definitely be useful.
Well we'll look at some of the art and talk about what you'd want to express in a tattoo.
It's cloudy and raining, here. Again.
It's Ireland in October. Anything else would be a pleasant surprise.
This is true. Though I might take the rain over all the snow Scotland eventually will have.
It's really not so bad. It's usually quite pretty.